Dear God, I’m Trying

Ever just find yourself legitimately trying to cope with what life is handing you and fumbling the ball. The harder you try the more you just seem to trip up?

It doesn’t matter if you’re dealing with a life-altering change or just simply trying to keep your head above the piles of dirty dishes and laundry.

 

I’ve found myself stopping and saying out loud:

Dear God, I’m trying.

Just those words and a deep breath.

I’m 99.99% positive God already knows that.

And I’m 100% positive I am trying to reassure myself that I am!

I sometimes laugh because I’m pretty sure the interpretation of the word ‘trying’ is different between God and myself.

I’m all:

“Yes Lord, I am doing my best even though it seems like I’m a bumbling idiot.”

And God is all:

“OH that’s what you mean, I wondered why you were announcing being a pain and trying my patience”

Dear God, I’m Trying.

I’ve said these words sitting on my dirty kitchen floor crying and while fighting back tears of anxiety sitting in a chemo chair.

Prayer is different for everyone and in my opinion, no ones is better than anyone else’s. So use it the way you need it and use it often. It’s hard to remember your struggles don’t need to be compared to anyone else’s.

 

When you feel like trying isn’t enough, but it really is.